Hey readers, so I’m always scared to post personal things on my blog. I’m always afraid of getting judged and what people think. When deep down I really couldn’t care less, it’s the overwhelming thoughts of it, not a general fear.
But anyway, I’ve just been to the doctors office about a awful pain I’ve had in my back and legs mostly. Well, this pain has been stopping me do things that I love recently. For example.. walking long distances, walking up the stairs to get into my home or even when I’m driving for a long time, my bones feel like they’re seizing up and it’s complete agony.
I wake up most mornings and I feel like I can’t get out of bed, I’m just in so much pain, until today. I woke up crying my eyes out, I was so sore, my back, my legs, my shoulders, constant shooting pains and numbness all over.
So, I had to phone the doctors. They gave me an emergency appointment for a few hours later, so I attended.
The worst outcome she could have told me if I’m honest. On top of my anxiety and depression, I also have a thing called ‘sciatica‘ in my spine and legs.. either caused by a back injury and or a slipped disc.
I have no idea how it’s this extreme, but I keep thinking back to the car accident I was in last year. I’m really, really not sure. I could ask myself a thousand questions why.
The term sciatica describes the symptoms of leg pain and possibly tingling, numbness, or weakness that originate in the lower back and travel through the buttock and down the large sciatic nerve in the back of each leg.
My doctor knows that I love to walk and take photos of everything, she knows me better than anyone.
Moving on, she’s prescribed me more antibiotics, pain relief and something for the numbness. Along with physiotherapy treatment in the near future. And advised me not to go any walking and take it real easy, at least until physiotherapy.
I’m really still so upset of the fact that she said don’t do things I love, when even getting out of the house is a big accomplishment for me, on it’s own.
As I’ve had so much therapy sessions and things to even get where I am today.
But, I’m really not trying to make this all about me, I just hope to reach out to people who are going through things in their life and like me, feel they can’t be open about everything or have no one to talk to.
Thank you for taking the time to read my blog and take care readers.
P.s. you’re doing the best you can!💜
Lots of love,